Source: potomacfallslitblogShould God exist, in final days,
when Earth at last rolls to a stop
trembles, ancient and tattered, stays
and all the graves are lifted up,
then I will come before your God
and, eyes without a blink, will stand.
My gaze will burn through his facade,
and He will shake in fear of Man.
And if…
I am frustrated. Things are going right, in many ways. Ugh. I just want to relax for a bit. I feel like a whore for posting this. Whatever, I only have 3 followers anyways.
So the other day I had a revelation. That revelation is that “OK Computer” is perfect. Literally fucking perfect. Something about the message just totally hit me. Each song captures some huge proponent of human existence. It seriously captures what everything in one album and it’s amazing.
Airbag- This song is so good. This one is about rebirth and just being awesome. I feel like I can barely describe this song, yet when i listen to it it’s so good. Yeah, I’m not doing this one justice. Look it up.
Paranoid Android- This one is about boring people. You know, the 99% of people who are just voids of meaning. They live these lives that are just… you’re probably one of them. Yup. Seriously this song is perfect though, look it up.
Subterranean Homesick Alien- This one is a tribute to Bob Dylan in the title. But it captures something else, too. This conviction we all have of being right and understanding things. We dismiss so many people as crazy and wrong just because it doesn’t match what we believe. It’s called closed-mindedness. Or being uptight.
Exit Music (For A Film)- This is a love song. It’s actually about Romeo and Juilet (it was used in the credits of the Leonardo diCaprio version). It perfectly captures the “fuck the world” attitude you have while in love. How you want to just throw everything else out. Just you and that person.
Let Down- This is about the meaningless and hopeless drawl that life is. But it’s such a good song. Seriously, listen to this one. It will blow your mind. The music is so good. But the lyrics are so accurate to. We’ve become lost in this tech-savvy and world. We’re not living, we’re just killing time.
Karma Police- I’m not so sure what this one is about. They claim it was a joke. I can’t tell if the Karma Police are the good or bad guys. Either could work. Listen to this one.
Fitter Happier- Ah, this song is great. It is simply a spoken word program on the Mac Computer. Speaking on what the ideal life ought to be. The… “ideal” life. Then it quickly reveals the void that this life is. The final lyric is “a pig in a cage on antibiotics.” That’s where the name of this blog comes from.
Electioneering- This one is complaining about politics, I believe. I’ve never really looked into it that much. But yeah, politics are pretty messed up.
Climbing Up The Walls- This is about being compulsively obsessed with someone. We’ve all felt this way about something before. It’s disturbing, but it’s human. This is a chilling song.
No Surprises- My favorite track on the record. This is just about a typical suburban lifestyle. “Such a pretty house and such a pretty garden.” But once again, it’s revealed to be a void of meaning.
Lucky- This is about surviving a dangerous accident. It sort of brings you to terms with how lucky you are just to be alive. Now that I think about it, this is sort of what Airbag is like, too.
The Tourist- This is about slowing down after all of that. That was a lot of hardcore stuff, this entire album. So slow down. Life is still life.
I feel like I didn’t do this justice at all. I know I didn’t do it justice. As I wrote, I kept realizing how shitty my explanations were becoming. Seriously though… listen to this album. It can change your life. (I’m not saying it will, but if you really listen, it will).
Happy Birthday, Thom Yorke! You are the greatest musical genius of our time.
2+2=5 (The Lukewarm)- Radiohead
My political philosophy has changed… a LOT. The first decade of my life- even the first 15 years, my philosophy was fairly stable- I was a Republican, although later I liked to call myself conservative. I basically fell in line with all of their beliefs. On second thought, my views were basically whatever America had. I remember thinking “expanding welfare is bad” while also thinking that the amount we had was the amount we needed. It was simply because I was accustomed to this society (and to my parents views, which almost matched mine). There was one issue on which I differed with them- abortion. It was only a minor difference. I believed that abortion was never justified, even when the mother’s health was at risk. However, I thought that it shouldn’t be made illegal in these cases, as I wasn’t positive that this was right. I was sure that abortion in cases of rape was unjustified, however, a stance that my mother was completely opposed to. She was very pro-life, but made rape cases the exception to the rule. It’s as if she considered rape the ultimate suffering (and still does, I assume- I don’t really think her views have changed very much).
During 8th and 9th grade, I was passionate about politics. I remember thinking to myself, “If you don’t care about politics, you don’t care about America!” I thought it was really quite clever at the time. (My other political catch phrase,regarding abortions, was, “If you don’t want your life to be screwed up, you shouldn’t have been screwing around in the first place!”)
My views started to evolve when I became interested in Glenn Beck- yes, the infamous show host on Fox. My dad got me one of his books, in which he proclaimed himself as a libertarian. I began to look at the differences between his beliefs and mine. Essentially, he thought there should be less restrictions on liberties, such as smoking in restaurants. I steadily found myself aligning with his views, and soon called myself a libertarian. I think this was in 10th grade. I steadily found myself endorsing less and less government, until I believed that it should only do what was necessary to protect natural rights (life, liberty, and property). This shift was more gradual. It at least took my through until the start of 11th grade.
There were two major changes that happened in 11th grade. I can’t remember which happened first, although I remember the exact hour of an exact date for one event. The more vague event was my transition to being an anarchist. This one was fairly inevitable- I just couldn’t justify the existence of government from a moral standpoint. No person should have any dominion over another. Seems logical enough, right? That was my political view for a very long time. The other change I had regarded religion. I was listening to “Imagine” by John Lennon at 1:00 AM on 10/10/10, when I became atheist. Just like that. The words of the song were so strong that I couldn’t block out all of the tendencies I’d had since grade school. I won’t go into too much detail about this one.
My political views changed one last time. I’d often found myself discussing anarchy with people, most of whom generally thought I was insane. However, I frequently discussed things such as politics and philosophy with another atheist at my school. He was (and is) totalitarian (preferably, he would be the dictator). Essentially, he thinks that a government that has complete economic control and no social control would be the best for society at large, or the greater good. He can certainly be described as utilitarian. He was always bothered by the fact that anarchy was extremely impractical, but I always insisted that morality outweighed. There were times when I questioned anarchy. Although my idea that no one deserved control over another, wasn’t that only in theory with anarchy? Capitalism is extremely controlling of the populace. Do it or die, essentially. This bothered me, but I just accepted it as the way things were in a truly free society. I kept wishing that my theoretical anarchist society would work, that somehow men could behave as angels. Perhaps there was some process they could go through to make them good? Temporarily give up morality so that, in the long run, society can flourish- without government. Then, it hit me. That’s what Marx had described in The Communist Manifesto. I haven’t actually read it, but it essentially describes the process of establishing a stateless and classless society with common ownership of property. It is, in essence, a Utopia. This idea started to appeal to me, and a few weeks ago I started calling myself a Marxist (I’m now in 12th grade). It provides a means to establishing the anarchy that I long for.
That was a long post. I really didn’t anticipate that. I really hope someone reads it. Unlikely.
Quick overview
9th Grade: Conservative
10th Grade: Libertarian
11th Grade: Anarchist
12th Grade: Marxist
I feel this need to post on tumblr every now and then, except that I never have anything to say. I feel like most people post something when they want to rant or had some sort of epiphany… it’s not that I don’t have those, but either a) they haven’t happened recently, for whatever reason, or b) I just don’t think of tumblr when they happen.
So, this is fulfilling my strange desire to post. I want to post something deep. Deep enough for a high schooler.
I’ve decided that I’m applying early to Brown and UVA.
I’m listening to The Bends by Radiohead. Great album/song.
I’m actually making decent-ish progress on my homework for once.
I just thought of something more interesting to post about, so I will end this post and immediately follow it with another.
Loooove Hugh. Because I totally love you… not. I don’t know if I love anyone. Or ever will. I really hope so.
Hi. I just feel in the mood to post something profound, but nothing comes to mind. Nothing I can say without giving away my secret identity, anyways! Yes, that is sadly a true statement. And one that no one understands, lets hope. I have no idea why I typed that… probably because it sounds funny.
I wish I had more time to devote to college applications.
Pink Floyd’s “Wish You Were Here” is a really good album.
So are the Velvet Underground’s debut and… the best album by Sigur Ros. I’m too lazy to look up what it’s called… approximately Aegitus Bryugn.
My italics are wrong on the Pink Floyd sentence.
